Todays stuff

Well what to put here?????? Let's see, I woke up , thank God, in no pain for once in days, this morning. Walked the puppy. Trying to do that everyday, for my benefit of loosing more weight, and for the benefit of my clean floors. That puppy of my sons is doing better with his potty training now. Just have to keep reminding the lazy teenage son to get off his butt and take him out. My son hated school, so he went and done the classes and graduated last week with the GED program. He said he wanted to get a job, but he hasn't made much effort this week. LOL, figures.

I also worked today 7 hours without the pain too from my fibromyalgia!! So happy for that.

Mom went this afternoon for a check up from her surgery on her back, and they are thrilled with all the progress she has made so fast. We are too. She is so much more a happy person doing for herself. She can be a meanie trying to get others to do things when and how she likes it done. Oh no, I'm like that too!! Wow, turned into my mother, oh well it isnt that bad being like my hero.

Well we got our first sleet shower today. It made it colder here in Virginia fast! Not ready for winter and all that cold. It makes me hurt and more work.

I was hopein to be in a smaller home by now, but can't seem to find one. I love this area and don't want to move out of it, but might have too. This house is way to big for 2 people. Costs to much to heat too. So, I'm still looking for something smaller.

Well thats all I got right now.

Hope everyone has a wonderful restful nights rest.

Take care.

TRANSFERING THIS OVER

WELL HAVEN'T DECIDED IF I AM GOING TO TRANSFER ALL THAT INFORMATION FROM THE AOL JLAND JOURNAL TO HERE. JUST MIGHT START OVER HERE. HAD FORGOTTEN THAT I MADE THIS JOURNAL, COUPLE YEARS BACK, WHEN TRYING TO GET SOME ANSWERS WITH WHAT WAS GOING ON IN MY LIFE. WHEN I TRIED TO MAKE GOOGLE BLOG HERE, SAID THERE WAS ONE ALREADY WITH MY NAME, SO THEN FOUND IT AGAIN. HAVEN'T FIGURED OUT HOW TO GET THE OTHER IN HERE YET, BUT I WILL I GUESS. OK THATS ALL FOR NOW.

What's happened in my life.

Well, what's happened to me, you asked?

I've had to deal with a huge crisis that I would never want to wish on my worse enemy. My husband admitted to the charges finally. He was convicted and is now serving 16 years in prison. My step daughter has gone on in her life like nothing ever happened. She's engaged to be married, to someone that I don't agree with. She only comes around when she needs something. But I finally told her, I have to love her from a distance. It just brings up feelings that I don't want anymore. My step son hasn't came to visit since his sister moved out. It's like he cut his feelings of me being his mother for all those years. I guess that's his way of copeing with all this too. I don't fault him in anyway. We never know what anyone will do in this situation or what's for the best. What works for one, sometimes doesn't for another, we are all different.

I will be getting a divorce from my husband. There is no way that I can stay with a man like that. I don't believe God would want me too either. I've prayed about it, and that's that conclusion that I came too. Needless to say this has changed me forever. I have alot of issues to work on now for myself, trust is a big issue now, when I use to trust everyone. My relationship with God was rocked to something that I'd never thought would happen. I still can't believe he let this happen in a loving christian home. The devil can slip in so easily in anywhere. I hated God for awhile and blamed him, have channeled now the anger where it should be and that is towards the devil, he's the blame. My life is so changed, and I don't like it. So I am bitter, I want to change that, but it's hard to get passed the hurt and anger. I will get through this, someday. That's all for now. Thanks for listening.